My eyes start poking up and I press them in until they’re smooth and flat,

putting in some saline drops to soften them and keep them from drying out,

of course it’s important to take care of yourself

as long as it’s not too much trouble.

When I’m feeling patient I like to sit down right next to my cell phone until it finishes charging,

patting my hair

and folding my hands in a neat pile,

I don’t mind waiting,

do you think it’s a problem?

It’s true, as long as you’re waiting you can watch a program while you’re waiting, or see your friends

while you’re waiting, or have sex while you’re waiting,

is this what you’re waiting for?  

As long as I’m patient I’m not even looking at anything until I know what I’m going to see, 

it’s not because I don’t care,

of course I care,

I mean if I didn’t care

I wouldn’t be so careful.

Sometimes I get up to look for something

and I look in the wrong place, 

I don’t know if it’s wrong,

it’s almost always somebody else’s fault,

I don’t mind admitting it. 

Honestly you need to be careful

as long as it’s not too much trouble, 

I’m keeping my tongue away from my lips, and my lips away from my teeth, not taking anything in,

I don’t even have a taste in my mouth.

Sometimes I think it’s easier to be patient when you don’t have anything in mind, although it’s difficult

to stop thinking about what you’re thinking about.

Kierkegaard thought life is not a problem, 

why are there so many problems in a person’s life?  

Of course, when there’s a problem you want to know what the problem is,

there are times when you’re actually solving a problem you’re having

while at the same time it creates another problem

that is usually a bigger problem. 

Whose problem is it anyway? 

There’s not that much difference between impulsive and compulsive,  

isn’t there? 

When I’m patient I place my thumbs on my eyes and press in until I see a bright light shining in my eyes,

as if life is a lighthouse warning me away. 

Peter Leight

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